Pounds more, pounds less...

This week someone asked me '' have you suffered from complexes? '', And well, of course I do! In fact, this question led me to remember the years of my adolescence. At that time, I had an average weight of 115 pounds and I used to have the tendency to gain weight (not to lose weight). From the waist down and in my cheeks reflected those ''extra pounds''. My height didn't help much - it was smaller than I am now. So, although I never worry about dieting or stopping eating, within my struggle with the thought ''I'm fat''. My body became my complex.

The complexes attack us all, regardless of sex and age. Some don't like their hair, their nose, their skin color, their feet or other part of the body; others are self-conscious in their dress, in their likes and dislikes, also in their way of being (they don't show their true personality); and there are those who have complexes with God, of those who say ''as I am? God could not use me'' or ''I shouldn't enter to the church, it will fall!''. To this we add the opinion exercised by others. On what is "beautiful" or "ugly". This is how complexes are produced, which are all those negative thoughts that you have about yourself or that others say about you, which prevent you from developing freely in your daily life. There were people who said to me: ''Hey, but you're more chubby!'' or ''I see you more plump''. Adding that to my negative thinking, it tortured me more.

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When I was in college, my career demanded a lot from me. So much, that after sleeplessness, stress after stress, I began to lose weight (something that never happened to me). At first, it was like ''Great! I will lower those extra pounds'', but as the years passed, that emotion disappeared. I got to weigh 90 pounds. You could see the bones of my neck and back highlighted. Seeing myself in the mirror was depressing because the new comments were not missing; ''How thin you are!'' ''Hey, but what happened to you?''. What I mean by this? In the two stages that I was dealing with my weight -my complex- people always had something to say. The concept, whether beautiful or not, was always the dilemma.

But who is the judge among us to decide between what is ugly and what is beautiful? What is beauty after all? Something beautiful for me could be something horrible for you or something beautiful for you could be something horrible for me. So, Hollywood magazines do not define you. Neither the commercials of T.v, the celebrities that you follow in your networks and less the popular kids that surround you every day. God defines you. In order to finish fighting with your "complexes" you must begin to see yourself as God sees you. And that only you discover, being close to Him.

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David, understood that the '' I Am'', which mean God, made him BE. This allowed him to live a life without complexes, ''Psalm 139: 13-14, For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well''. The intimate relationship that David had with God allowed him to have that "security" about who God was and therefore who he was.

Also, understand that what is inside you is reflected in your exterior. God for that reason is so interested in working with our interior, with what nobody sees, but that for Him has much more value, "1 Peter 3:4, Rather, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God’s sight''.

This will change your life! This changed mine! I gave him my heart to work with me, I began to have a closer relationship with Him, and that led me to see myself as He sees me and as He defines me. Today I am myself, but with God. I do what I do because I know He has chosen me. Today I am free of complexes! and you can also be free today!

I bless you and hug you!